If You Strip Me, Strip It All Away

         I have an image problem. I know I have mentioned things before. Mostly hints of things that I don’t like about myself, but I am going to verbalize many of them. Let’s start with my personality; I like to think that I get along with almost all people. But I have a confession, I don’t. I have issues with a group of people that is found in every society. I cannot stand arrogant personalities. I know I am not supposed to judge a book by its cover, but most of the time I can pick out really conceited people. I have actually caught myself putting these people down to mortalize them in my mind. Whether I am tearing them down on how they walk, or their imperfections; I catch myself putting them down. I have a friend who is one of these people. No offenses to all the wrestlers out there but all of them have an attitude like this. My friend walks with a strut, he knows everything about everything and everyone is in love with him. The bad thing about this is you should never tell an arrogant person you like them, because their head will soon look like the queen of hearts. When I notice someone with a large head I subconsciously start tearing them down to their face. It will all be done in a joking manor but I am serious with what I say. The best part about all of this is that they stay around me; maybe it is a good thing to do to help people stay grounded. This is not a quality I like too much about myself but it does exist.

         Spirituality is something I feel like is a weird issue, but it is something that I think about. I tear apart spiritual experiences. I am probably going to be back-handed by the Good Man by doing this. Sometimes I feel bad about doing it but when it comes to the LDS church I have to dissect and process things because theory becomes doctrine too quickly in some meetings. Here is an example: I was sitting in church last week and there was a guy who was giving a talk, and the way he said the prayer got under my skin a little bit. He had dramatic pauses and he had what I like to call The Spiritual Voice. This is when the individual lowers his voice to a lower tune, and quiets his speech. He pauses often to add an effect of “holiness” to what he is talking about. He talked about personal experiences from his mission, and he was a little farcical about them. I am possibly a little too laid back, but I have an issue with people who like to dramatize spiritual experiences to make them look special in some way. I have never had a huge awakening moment to know that God is real; it is by small and simple testimony builders that have solidified my belief in God. So when I sit in church and listen to an over-dramatic story telling of a spiritual experience I vomit a little bit in my mouth. I am not saying this to talk down a spiritual experience, but I feel like the people who express intimate spiritual experiences in this way are diminishing the importance of the experience. Or I dare say they are almost making a mockery of it all.

          Now to the most annoying things I think about myself. They are my physical features. I am really tall so I have bad blood circulation in my body, my hands and feet are always cold. That is one of the many reasons I prefer a warmer climate. When the circulation actually gets moving properly through my hands or feet I feel weird; my hands or feet will feel swollen and tight. Another thing I hate about myself is my round face, no explanation there because it is not a desired trait. Along with my round face I have an oddly shaped nose and a sharp chin with a flat head. I am thin and gangly, my eyes are not as green as I would like them and I cannot gain weight to save my life; I wish I could follow Kellan Lutz around for a week or a month and see what that guy eats in a day. Then I would imitate it and become an Abercrombie model. That would be totally awesome.

                That’s me in a nut-shell.  

 Dr.K

(Song: Strip Me, Artist: Natasha Bedingfield)