Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Where There is Desire There's Gonna Be a Flame

For some reason I feel like today will be a day I feel like sharing something that I find really embarrassing. I don’t share it with too many people. I have a strange fascination with Americas Next Top Model. I know, weird right. I tend to say the title of the show really quietly and shy-like when I tell someone. I found the show on my Amazon prime account and have been watching old seasons. Actually it has been the seasons that I started watching it (cycle 7 and cycle 8).
Lately I have been watching it a lot, between 30 Rock and ANTM that is all I watch lately. I hate seeing all the drama. What I love watching is the photo-shoots and the creativity that some photographers produce. So the other day I had gone into work the day after a day off and was talking to a friend at work. We were being a little immature and laughing about things when she asked what I did the day before. I had a look of shame on my face when I responded quietly, “I watched Americas Next Top Model, and worked on homework.” rather than looking at me and laughing like most people do she says, “Oh! I love that show!” well that was a relief. So we talked for a while about our favorite photo-shoots and how complicated some of the challenges were. Then she says to me (by the way this was really random because I had not shown any desire into what she was about to say) “You should apply to be on the show.” I was surprised because I was like “Do I look like a girl to you?” when all of the sudden it dawned on me that the current season has male and female contestants. So I politely declined her persuading antics. It would be fun to do even if I was the first person voted off.
Needless to say I have been thinking a lot about this. I have watched many more full seasons (let me rephrase: I watch through the photo-shoot than skip to the next episode). The more I watch it the more I think it would be exciting to do. I feel so dumb even talking about this to real people who might actually read this blog. I have thought about taking a leave from work for it if I actually made it on the show, I have thought about “who is going to pay my bills while I am gone if I am there for several weeks? And let’s face it, this is all hypothetical, I do not have the body of a male model, I could work on it harder than I actually am. But hey it is fun to entertain an idea like this every once in a while right?
This friend and I at work have been talking and decided to have our own photo-shoot. We are going to get together and have some fun taking photos. Now luckily these are people who I can have a good time with and feel like an idiot. I guess this will help me decide if I want to really do this, and even then, if I look at my pictures and they look great and I worked well in front of a camera rather than behind it, I might apply. But for all those who know me I most likely will be too lazy and feel dumb about applying.
I have a good friend who has done a lot of fashion design schooling and is not working for a good company designing clothes. Something I remember her talking about while she was in school was how some of her teachers were basically telling them that fashion is more important than breathing. Now with an attitude industry like that I don’t know how I can manage. I like to learn new things, well things that interest me. I don’t know if I could handle someone telling me that if I don’t do a photo-shoot I am useless. Look at me actually considering this, I am laughing out loud right now...
Now that I have shared something I feel is embarrassing I want everyone who talks to me after reading this to treat me like normal and not make fun of me, I make fun of myself enough. If I get together with my friends and do the photo-shoot we have been discussing I will post my favorite pictures. The end.
 
 
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